One of those days.

I'm not sure if it's the cold November Rain or for the fact that i'm alone in my office for the rest of the week with not much work to do or because my brain seems to never shut off, but I can't stop thinking about 'what if's' lately.  Especially with former relationships.  Colder weather seems to remind me more of Ex'es and on rainy days like today, all I'd like is to be curled up with a blanket in someones arms.  I miss that feeling.  The feeling of being safe.  The feeling of knowing someone cares.  I guess it's just one of those days....

When the timing is right (although is it ever right?) I will meet someone who completely takes my breath away.  But this inbetween time gets hard.  And with the holidays coming up, that makes it even harder for me.  I'm sick of spending Christmas alone.  This is the time of year when I should be happiest and thankful for my friends and family --which I am.  But my life lacks that special kind of love.  And it's starting to take its toll on me.  I've become jaded by being hurt so many times before.  What if I never find true love?  What's life without it?

I know that these nostalgic feelings won't stick around for ever, because let's face it, "nothing lasts forever...even cold November rain."  I just need to remind myself of that sometimes.  And continue to keep an open heart.

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